I called my brother in lunch yesterday. To make a long story short, he said he couldnt call me and Karen cuz he's BUSY.....I cried. Robert and Moises kept harassing me. (Hm maybe THATS why Robert called me last night at 11:30, while I was sleeping) I told Karen, she cried. we called him again in 9th period Biology. Karen was like "what if we were dieing and we needed u? what would have happened then?" then she cried even more, and at this point i got mad. She gave me the phone and I was like, Louie we were there for u when ur moms kicked out out and u were living in a fucking staircase. Who called u everyday to make sure u were eating everyday? Me! Karen!
He had the nerve to say "it's not that serious" oh and may I add that he was husslin on the phone with us. Thats when I started crying again. I duno where I got the courage from guys, cuz never in my life have i disrespected him but I was like, Luis right now I dont wanna fucking talk 2 u, so I'll call u when I have the time. and I hung up.
Guys how the fuck is he gonna say "its not that serious" I could fuckin get in trouble for talking to him, I would get beat by like every person in my intire family for this, but nope I put myself on the line for HIM! Me, being the little pendeja I am, I trusted him. I started to be able to trust people again because of him, and now I dont trust anyone right now but Karen. Sorry to all those people I began to trust, I still trust to tell u things, but I dont trust anyone right now.
All that I could think is that my brother doesnt love me, my brother doesnt love me. And that only made me cry more. Moises called me at 12:45 last night. He made me tell him. I cried even more. I didnt want him to hear me cry, or see me cry. He said I should have told him when we were in juans car, so if i cried atleast he could hug me (what a smart person) In a way I did cry with him, right after lunch he came to hug me and i cried a little so he should be happy.
Its not that serious.....if he ever decides to call me, and he wants to complain to me, "Mandy I'm sick"..."Yea Louie its not that serious"
Ugh and I say that now, and I know in a few days, I'll be going back to callin him everyday even if its just to hear his voice mail "Peace this is Lou. I cant answer the phone right now, so leave me a message. Thanks for stoppin by. Have a nice day aight."
I cry every time I hear it.....I love my brother, even if he does decide to treat me like shit, I'll never forget him, and I'll always love him more then life itself.

Louie, Pico, Luis Alberto Ortega...baby...I love you with all my heart, No Matter What!

Mandy